So most of you know that I am a single mom, maybe not all of you but I am and I have to say this has been hard, raising three little babies is the hardest thing I have done, I am not talking just about the money because triplets are expensive, but money is just that money, we don't take anything with us when we depart from this world but memories and our actions, but the hardest thing for me is not being able to give all my love to each one, and I am afraid that I will never be enough for my daughters, I love them so much, and it hurts when they get hurt I can't imagine a future where they are not happy, they are my whole everything, I want them to be happy, safe, loved, I just want that.
Let me tell you this single parenthood world made me grow up so much, and I'm laying down on my bed here in Lima,with tears on my eyes grateful to my Heavenly Father for this wonderful experience, because thanks to this I am the woman that I am, I'm not a perfect person and for sure I am not a perfect mom, but I can say that I am so good with my girls, I love them so much, I see their little faces and how similar they look to me, and see them grow, giving their first steps, saying their first words, kissing eachother, holding hands, I am so happy to be able to see that, when they do that I feel happy about myself because I am making them love each other, and that is what is all about right? Love one to another... I love my babies, they are the most amazing teachers that I ever had, they taught me to be responsible, to be patient, to share, to see the bright side always, to be positive, to talk with lovely words, to respect, to go step by step, to not freak out, to not be selfish, to love.
I have been told many times... Sariah you don't know what love is... maybe I didn't but these little angels taught me good, and I can say that I KNOW HOW TO LOVE, I can say now that my love is pure and doesn't have limits! I can say "I love you" to my girls how many times I want I can give them kisses and they will kiss me back as much as I want! this is wonderful!
I grow up so much since April last year and I love the person who I am since then It is true I didn't know myself until I was a mom, how wonderful person I became I love myself, and I am thankful for being a mom and for being a mom of triplets!!!
So no matter how hard is has been it has been wonderful crazy adventure I love it!
Go Jazz!
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Sariah-
ReplyDeleteYou are so much stronger than you know, and I am proud of the mother you are to those little girls. They are so blessed to be your daughters. I know you can do this!
Love-Shanna